I get to have sex in five days.
YUSSSS.
The little spot at South Sea Resort where the manatees hang out near the shore.
I need it to be next Wednesday night like NOW.
Everyday I feel myself going into the right direction. Literally everything from my past is starting to match up and explain itself. I got married because that was the only thing that would keep me in Fort Myers long enough to be here for Pj for come find me. I worked at Shadow Wood for three years and kept getting screwed over so I could understand how to have a presence in the workplace and realize that YOU dictate how others treat you. The chef that was in my class teaching was there for me and PJ to meet, now for me to (hopefully) work with him with restaurant week- via the vcb. People at the VCB know my old neighbors, the city manager of fort myers and a marketing executive- i used to babysit their cat. I was too young to sit their kids.
It is all connected. and it’s seriously blowing my mind right now. But I couldn’t be happier. My boyfriend comes home in 7 days and then we are going to try and start building a life. This was happiness I thought I’d might never feel again. And it’s back, stronger and peaceful the second time because i know how it feels to hurt.
